Monday, January 7, 2008

Mercy Day

Some days are just GRACE all over the place. Some days we need so much MERCY. Today was a MERCY day.....After such a fabulous start to our new life in Midland, I found a really negative attitude today on my first day at Lee. It has to get better. 5 rats in my new classroom (the ones that I SAW), NO new friends on my first day, exhaustion and overwhelm just seemed to take their toll. My back hurts - tile floors in my room. Classroom resources are almost nonexistent. I was 'shrugged off' at lunch today....I felt like a 7th grade girl who wanted to run to my car and cry after everyone gathered with their 'groups' to go out to lunch. Man. I haven't experienced that in a long time....if ever. I probably had it coming. I will forever be more mindful of the 'newbies' on campus.....that is for SURE. I miss LD Bell. I miss the comfort of my friends in my department. I miss a room full of resources. I miss students who loved me. I miss a staff where I had already 'proved' myself. I miss confidence. I miss the copy room! (we're on our own) I miss colored paper. I miss having a colored printer. I miss open purchase orders. I miss contained rodents. (???) I miss getting paid on the 20th. I miss my messy desk. I miss internships. I miss my teen moms. I miss Bannister's references to 'getting on the bus' (we had a stupid bus evacuation drill today to see how fast we could get OFF of the bus.......I thought that was quite ironic......) I miss my parking place right by the door. I miss Linard, our custodian. I miss having a dicut machine not only at school - but in my room! I miss portfolios. I miss Felita's tuna fish. I miss her hugs, encouragement and servant leadership. I miss craft fair. I miss having to be rescued from convo. I miss lunch runs with Jen. I miss having Pat to remind me about dates and meetings. I miss CTE campus funds and walmart credit cards. I miss portfolios. I miss knowing what I'm doing TOMORROW. I miss my sweet students. I miss L.D. Bell.

I am so thankful that His mercies are new every morning.

Psalm 90:14
Satisfy us in the morning with your unfailing love, that we may sing for joy and be glad all our days.

Love to my Bell Family - Donna

2 comments:

KirkKrew said...

I'm your first comment! Yeah!! I hope today was a better day! Hey - it couldn't get much worse right? We miss you too!! It's just not the same without you. :( I'm thankful every day that you, Felita and Pat accepted me and didn't treat me like an outcast or a newbie. I'm praying for you!! Keep us posted!

Love,
Jenn

fr said...

You would be the one that would make me post something on a blog! You always had a way of helping me to get current!
I just finished washing and setting my mom,s hair. What a role reversal. We both had memories of her braining my hair after having washed it for me. My how our lives have changed in just a short time.
God's plan is working through our lives and we can never forget He is right by our side. May the Holy Spirit hold you up and cover you with the warm peace that is our gift from Him.
Pray for us at Bell and know that we are praying and thinking of you as we go through our day.
Today is Silas' bithday. I'm emailing him next.
Have a great Sunday and week.
Love and miss you!
Felita